My name is Biba, aka Ms. Pillowz, (more on the name later), and I was a big girl for most of my life until I exchanged my Big Girl Badge for my Big Diva Card.  Like many big girls, I envisioned this great life for myself: love, money, family, loads of friends, success, fun, and absolute happiness AFTER I got down to a size 2.  “Until then, my big behind didn’t deserve those things,”  I rationalized.  As a result, I didn’t treat myself well.  It was clear by the way that I dressed, who I dated, how I treated my body, my negative attitude, and experiences and opportunities that I let pass me by.  I’m very nice, easy to get along with, very funny, and have a great personality, but I was miserable.  I didn’t like myself at all and I was hating life.  I tried a ton of diets and all sorts of pills and programs, with my most successful one being the Adkins Diet.  I ended up gaining back any weight that I lost and more. 

 

Turning Point:  I just got sick and tired: sick of saying no to fun stuff, tired of all the black clothes, sick of failed diets that took me further away from achieving my skinny girl goals.  Just sick and tired!!  I had had it!  I decided to step out there and do something cool.  I always wanted to travel, but was holding off until I reached my weight loss goals.  So, I said, “Screw that!  I’m taking a trip!”  An Amtrak Vacations brochure came in the mail and that was the starting point of my journey.  I decided not to put things on hold anymore.  Despite my fear, I closed my eyes and booked a solo trip to Montreal, Quebec for 3 days.  That trip taught me so much about myself.  I can’t imagine where I would be right now if I had allowed my fear to keep me from going.

 

Since then, I slowly worked on my journey to becoming a Big Diva.  Between reading tons of books, watching shows, therapy, travelling, and throwing myself into opportunities for growth, it took some years, but I clawed my way to a great and fulfilling life.  I still have work to do, but I have come a very long way.  I am so proud of me!  I am doing things that I never thought that I would do and that is what I want for all of you.  You can have it all and do whatever you want NO MATTER your size!